Kira started daycare a few weeks ago. She’s two and a half years old now. Time flies by so quickly. Well… until she brought home the plague.
It was bound to happen of course. I’d been home for pretty much eight months straight while out of work and then starting a work from home job so I wasn’t bringing home other people’s germs anymore. Kira rarely got to play with other kids (which is the main reason for putting her into daycare) so she was hardly ever exposed to anything. So yeah… two days of daycare later and we were all sick.
We got over it; we got better. A week or so passed and sure enough – sick again. I seemed to get hit with the worst of it first and was miserable. Constant drainage which led to a sever sore throat after a few days. The weird thing was that it was only really bad at night. I don’t mean when I laid down to sleep… no, I mean at around sunset. Soon after Kira started showing signs and we both got on antibiotics which helped me immensely and Kira is recovering still. Michelle was spare for the most part… for a few days.
Now Michelle has it worse than any of us had it. I think it was the plague just waiting for her to utter the words “I guess I got lucky” because a day later she was miserable. That on top of everything else and she has been miserable. Now I’m just hoping that it doesn’t mutate and infect me again. Ugh….
Well, enough of the depressing posts for the time being. Time to change the subject.
As some of you may know and many others don’t, I was laid off from my previous job back in June of 2010. I was out of work for the longest span I have ever experienced and it was tough. Our savings took a royal beating and it is going to take a while to recover. We skipped birthdays and Christmas for the most part.
Yeah I know I said no more depressing posts for now and I meant it. Oddly enough I wouldn’t trade that time off for the world. I have gotten to know my daughter so much better than I ever had time for before. We’ve bonded over that time at home and it has been wonderful. Sure things were rough and even a little scary now and then but that was minor compared to getting to see my baby girl learning and growing and transforming like my wife has had the privilege to experience since her birth.
Being a stay at home parent is hard. I knew that before and this time has only confirmed it. But it has its own rewards. Its own compensation. But still… I’m glad I’m now back to work.
I started a new job a few weeks ago before the end of the year. That was supposed to be the start of a happy 2011 but you know how that has turned out so far. But this new job is good. I like what I’m doing and the compensation is good. Plus its for a non-profit who is making a difference every day for people who need it. What else could I ask for? Well how about working from home? Yeah, I got that too. It’s freaking sweet.
This is not the way to start a new year – or the way for the previous one to end. 2010 was a horrible year and we were only too happy to see its end on the horizon. Unfortunately it went clawing tooth and nail like a wildcat slipping into a well and made certain one remaining casualty would haunt the first day of what should have been a happy new year.
There was no countdown, no champagne, no celebration. Only the sadness of family so emotionally and physically exhausted too confused by the state of family stricken down in an instant. There were no party hats, no music, no resolutions. Only anger at the injustice of it all and the unfairness of losing someone who deserved to live more than just 46 years.
But to the year of 2010 I say piss off – you will never be missed. Yes, you spoiled these first days/weeks/months of our new beginning in 2011 but no matter how hard things are now we will carry on. Prayers fail, begging fails, pleading fails and we know that life is just life and that we are on our own. How we handle things now, then and forever are ours to own and no one else’s to lay blame.
Life is short. Be good to one another and to yourself. And hope that those around you do the same. We’re all each other have.
Oh this is going to be a long week. Yesterday Michelle‘s mom came up and whisked Kira away to the country for almost a week. We expect to get her back on Friday. I already miss her.
Michelle has a very busy week this week with editing photos from multiple gigs, friends coming into town and going to see a big concert and who knows what else is on her list. She’s busy. So her mom’s doing us a favor by keeping Kira so Michelle can do everything she needs to do and I don’t have to take time off work or get bombarded by stuff when I get home.
Of couse this means that we can do whatever we want without fear of waking Kira up or that she will wake up in the middle of the night. I stayed up till almost midnight last night playing a game without headphones. It was awesome.
But I do miss her and it hasn’t even been 24 hours since she left (however it has been over 24 hours since I last saw her). The way she smiles at me every day when I come home makes everything worthwhile. *sigh*
Well, better make the best of it. As I understand it, I believe the lawn has my name on it tonight. *sigh*
I’m just beginning to see
Now I’m on my way
to another meeting. Only two today, not so bad really.
Left-over pasta for lunch from Cecil Whitakers All-You-Can-Eat Pasta special that they have every monday. The tortellini is actually better reheated than it was fresh. It turns out that I can’t eat as much all-you-can-eat pasta as I once could. And for that degredation in skills I am actually quite happy. Sometimes I am still shocked at the portions at restaurants. I’ve been back from Hong Kong for one year and sadly I have adjusted to the gigantic meals of the Midwest but its sad. No wonder overweight people outnumber the thin here. Trained. Blarf.
I have bought some clay. My wife printed off a 25% coupon for Hobby Lobby and we went there last night after I got home from work. I ended up getting some Sculpey Firm which from the descriptions online that I read seemed like a good fit. I also have a cheap package of what I can only guess is just plain old clay and not polymer. The package is in 438 different languages and none of them seem to be English. It was cheap so I thought I would try it out. I have no idea what I am doing so who knows what will actually work for me.
Kira is off with Grandma and Grandpa Stinky for a few nights. They get called Stinky because they both smoke and… well… they stink. I’m sure there’s a nicer way to put it but – no. Febreze is used so it helps but only so much. Maybe some day they will quit. Yeah.
I think we are planning on going to see a movie tonight.