It’s March already. March 2nd to be exact. Ten days away from another birthday and another day closer to the grave. Yeah, not much activity on here lately. No real posts this year and not much towards the end of last year. No revival over at A Little Scary and if you follow me on Facebook, Twitter or Plurk then you know I’ve not been very active in those areas either. I’m well aware – and most of the time I’m OK – with that.
I guess my priorities changed. Having a toddler, yeah Kira is almost 16 months old now, means having a lot less free time. A lot less freedom too. If I have free time, I usually just want to relax or play a video game or maybe watch a movie. There are a hundred and one things I’d like to do but I just don’t have the time or ambition to do them all and sometimes that means I don’t do any of them. Writing is one of those things. Drawing is another. Sculpting, I finally started and will hopefully post some pictures of my first piece (in progress). Reading, playing, sorting, organizing, learning, designing… all things that don’t happen all that much.
Now I know that there are people out there who go to work full time, go to school, work out and still take care of their kids. I have the utmost respect for those people. I have no idea how they do it. I want to be like that. I just don’t know how.
I watch things like Extreme Makeover: Home Edition on television and say to myself “I want to do things that impact people like that.” But I don’t have – or at least make – the time to better myself. How can I expect to make the lives of others better if I don’t even make my own life better? I don’t know.
Is this whining? I’m not sure. Is this a plea for help? I have no idea. Is it me venting and just spinning my wheels in the life I have put myself in? Yeah, probably. What do I do about it all? I don’t know.
I want the easy way out. I want to win the lottery so I can quit my job and become a philanthropist. But I don’t even buy lottery tickets but a handful of days out of the year. I guess that shows how much faith I have in the “easy way”.
It’s easier to be a “dreamer” instead of a “doer”. I’m guilty of both. What about you?
Oh. Hey. Look at that. It’s 2010.
Well… that’s done. Carry on.
OK, so much for my updating at least once a week idea. Work has been a little busier lately and Michelle hasn’t been feeling 100% all the while Kira seems to be developing a temper as a couple more teeth start ripping through her gums.
I’m glad I don’t remember that process. They say that is one of the worst pains ever but truthfully how would you know? Babies can’t tell you how it feels or how it compares to childbirth, root canals or drawn and quartering. You can’t hook them up to a meter and see the pain on a graph. I guess it’s like most things… a guess.
Michelle and I took a little time last weekend away from the baby and went to have lunch at Red Lobster and then off to see Zombieland. If you haven’t seen Zombieland yet then you are truly missing out. It’s funny, goofy, scary (stupid clown), self-deprecating, a bit gory and full of action. There’s even a touching moment so there’s something for everyone. Meaning emotionally touching… not inappropriately touching… you know what I mean.
I’ve got a bunch of vacation days that need to be taken before the end of the year so I am figuring out how to plan that out. Everytime I think I have it all sorted something new comes up. It happened again today. Urgh.
Oh, I have a Playstation 3 now! Yay! Although I really don’t have any games for it. I got it used on eBay and it did come with Street Fighter 4 (which I really don’t like surprisingly) and Singstar (which is kinda fun but quite limited compared to other music games). So I don’t count those. I’m hoping to get the Game of the Year edition of Little Big Planet for Christmas because that just looks fun to me. Maybe I should download the demo and try it out first but it seems interesting. Plus God of War 3 will be out eventually although since the main guy involved in the first two is no longer part of the franchise I’m not holding my breath.
I got the old 60GB PS3 which is why I got it on eBay instead of going to the store. I picked that one specifically because it is the only model that has the hardware emulation for both PS1 andPS2 games built-in. So of course the first thing I did was play We Love Katamari. Because I just can’t get enough of rolling stuff into balls. Don’t ask because I don’t know.
Oh this is going to be a long week. Yesterday Michelle‘s mom came up and whisked Kira away to the country for almost a week. We expect to get her back on Friday. I already miss her.
Michelle has a very busy week this week with editing photos from multiple gigs, friends coming into town and going to see a big concert and who knows what else is on her list. She’s busy. So her mom’s doing us a favor by keeping Kira so Michelle can do everything she needs to do and I don’t have to take time off work or get bombarded by stuff when I get home.
Of couse this means that we can do whatever we want without fear of waking Kira up or that she will wake up in the middle of the night. I stayed up till almost midnight last night playing a game without headphones. It was awesome.
But I do miss her and it hasn’t even been 24 hours since she left (however it has been over 24 hours since I last saw her). The way she smiles at me every day when I come home makes everything worthwhile. *sigh*
Well, better make the best of it. As I understand it, I believe the lawn has my name on it tonight. *sigh*
I was going to post something witty and insightful here but… I got nothing. Plus this Exchange 2010 RC is still dealing me fits at work. Annoying piece of crap. I’m sure it’s something simple I am missing but I don’t know what.
Oh well… there’s always tomorrow I suppose.